10 years ago today I started this journey. I sat in a small room in Burlington with many other expectant and excited and anxious people, watching the video footage of a family meeting their child in China for the first time, wondering if this was the right journey for me. What I didn't know then was where I would end up. 10 years ago, I had a different job, different friends, I lived in a different house, I had a different life. This journey has changed me.
Grace has brought excitement and craziness and mess into my life that was already crazy and messy.
10 years is a long time to get to where you want to be in life. I will not deny that I was bitter about the wait, really really bitter. Life felt very unfair for many years waiting for Grace, getting older and more anxious about the outcome with every set-back.
But I took a leap of faith to start this process, and it was my faith that kept me in it. Unfortunately I often go days without thanking God for Grace but every time I get a reminder (like this anniversary date) I am completely humbled by the priviledge I have been given by God, by China. Grace was definitely worth the wait! A year and a half into parenting and I'm still in the "pinch me" stage most days. I can't believe I'm actually a mom, although if you saw how tired and frazzled I am, you wouldn't doubt it for a second!!LOL
This process? This journey? This past 10 years?Exciting at the beginning, hard in the middle, amazing at the end. And that pretty much sums it up.
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