Tuesday will mark one year since I first held my daughter in my arms. That day was crazy. It was hot and loud and busy at the Civil Affairs office in Nanjing. I didn't feel overly well, still a bit jet-lagged and my body was adjusting to the new foods and climate, but what a day it was. Holding a screaming, crying baby while trying to sign paperwork and at the same time listening to someone explain in broken English, all of Grace's information and schedules. Most of the day was a blur. Grace and I will celebrate our first Forever Family Day on Tuesday fairly simply as it is my first day back to work, probably just dinner and a nice dessert with my parents, however, as I get closer and closer to the anniversary of our first day together, I think about how my life has changed. I've said it several times here before, I can no longer remember my life before Grace nor imagine my life without her, but that's a bit of a lie because I do remember my life before Grace. It's a distant memory but there are many things I remember about being a single woman living on my own and I even miss some of those things.
Here are some of the things I miss from my life before Grace.
- drinking hot coffee
- cooking an actual meal
- eating an actual meal
- wearing make-up
- eating in front of the TV, even getting to watch TV
- wearing nice clothes, heck, wearing clean clothes
- talking on the phone to friends, strangers, enemies, telemarketers, whoever
- peeing alone
- not having to entertain someone on the other side of a shower curtain, all the while trying to hold the shower curtain closed with one foot while showering at breakneck speed
- having a whole bed to myself
- not having to stop 3 times on the way up or down the stairs, just because
- getting out the door in 10 minutes if I need to
- eating in nice restaurants with friends
- Barbequing my dinner - it 's too dangerous as a single mom to a curious toddler
I miss every one of those things, sometimes I miss them a lot. I had a really good life before Grace. But believe me, I have an even better life after Grace.